ohh.. hello there... so long since.. i don't know.. so long since i have talked to all of you , right? but well.. as usual.. who cares? anyways... im here to talk about shit.. my personal shit.. since... this became kind of a dumpster for me...
So.. the thing that kills me is that i used to know i knew everything i wanted to know... but since i was little i felt alone in this world...oh no it didn't started now..i used to say that my mind is a horrible place, and it is. but i don't say it NOPE. i just wear my big smile and listen to the problems of the others. and they never ask how i am. OH OHHH??? don't get me wrong i love to help, but i have this constant fought of 'why don't they ask how i am?' even if they asked... i would probably lie or joke.
and... the part of being... ignored , but in a way that i feel people doesn't mind about my art at all... and i guess its okay? and yes i might be a jealous fuck now.. but hey! i want attention too. and it makes me angry that all of my friends.... wait, no... not my "friends" cuz they aren't haha , sorry my bad :9 agh.. they get all the attention and i see that they are getting better with art.. but when i look at my artwork.. i feel like im kinda stuck?.. its ho rrible... FUCKING HORRIBLE YOU KNOW? and hell... i don't know whats going on on my head? im so hopeless , its funny cuz.. im making a comic about shitty hope? hah.. sad. but whatever... someday someone will give a damn about my art... or maybe not?... ahhh.... i always had this shitty mentality... but what can i do?... ill just... keep drawing, even if that doesn't make me feel good at all anymore when im sad.
oh... and one more thing. i don't want comments about anything... pfff!!! who am i kidding? no one will read this? right?
so yea keep with your lives. hope you are having a good time . hahaha
and remember, sMILE.